Battling Chaos v.5 : Hammer out the details

Planning Planning Planning!

Now that I have the reasons for my change I need to create an action plan.  

This week should be used to plan how I’m going to accomplish what I wrote down as my wants and needs.

I have a lot to do and a lot to accomplish if I want to start putting a dent in those need and want lists. I’m going to hit my home in sections see how this works. The list is not set and I may add items to it. (see list below) Once I start getting my home in order I’ll start adding in other aspects of my life I’d like to simplify.

For each area of my home, I’m going to clear out everything, pack it up or put it in a designated spot, clean the empty space and then divide all the items I pulled out into items I want to keep, sell/donate or trash. My plan is to post before, during and after pictures to go along with each blog post.

Home

  1. Computer Area
  2. Fireplace & Tv area
  3. Under the stair storage
  4. Entry way and Coat Closet
  5. Rest of living room
  6. Dining Room & long bookcase behind it
  7. Kitchen, fridge and pantry
  8. Downstairs bathroom
  9. Linen Closet
  10. Laundry Room
  11. Master Bathroom
  12. Master Bedroom
  13. Master Closet
  14. 2nd Bedroom
  15. Car

Life

  1. Create a budget and stick to it
  2. Work towards becoming debt free
  3. Cook more food at home
  4. Exercise more
  5. Make time for reading
  6. Make time for crafts – Knitting, card making, painting
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2 weeks

You know, I’ve never been one to really care about my age. When I was 16, ya maybe I was excited to drive. I mean, hello freedom! That also came with “You need to go pick up your sisters” and “If you want to drive, you need to get a job” said in a dad voice. This was annoying because my sisters were generally no where to be found when I went to pick them up, such a waste of time. When I turned 18, yay I could vote and smoke legally if I actually wanted to smoke, which is gross by the way. At 18, voting was not a priority to me nor did it have the same importance it does now. When I turned 21, yay I can legally drink, if I actually wanted to drink. There have been occasions where my age has seemed important and worthy of caring about but none have physically made me feel the way I do now.

This year, now that I’m almost 30, the logical part of my brain is like, “whatever it’s just an another year older”. The other part of my brain, hormones, physical being, I don’t know what to call it is freaking out, “OMG OMG OMG Seriously in 2 weeks you will be 30 and you have done NOTHING with your life”. I spent a while the other night just thinking about how I’m not where I want to be in life, I’m single and have not even started on a family, and I don’t have a fabulous career/making good money. I seriously thought I was having a panic attack over turning 30 and that is very much unlike me. While I am disappointed none of the things I mentioned are things that I have, I’m not unhappy. I’m happy and content with the way my life is, even if I occasionally get lonely, because let’s face it, being single can be rather lonely. There are areas in my life I want to change and I’m working on them but nothing that should make me feel bad.

Why am I writing this? I just wanted to get it out of my head. I really could care less but the irrational me can’t let it go. On a certain level I can understand why my friend was freaking out about turning 30 last December. It also makes me wonder and sort of sad to think about what drives me, possibly others, to think about what are acceptable achievements for woman approaching 30. This can be asked about both men and woman and for any age. What makes us think that at any given age, we should be living a certain way?

Tiffany – The Tangled Taurus

A Mad House

My home is stressing me out big time. I’m completely disorganized, messy and I think this might have been a leading cause as to why I felt like crud last week. I walk into my home and my first thought is, oh I just want to sit down, I’m oh so tired. Moments before walking into my home, I WAS feeling pumped and ready to do something productive. What the heck brain???

I’m stuck in an endless cycle. I’m not trying to complain I’m just frustrated with myself. My shoes are scattered in the entry way, the floor needs to be swept and scrubbed. My entry way table has a massive invite, and it’s not picky, to all shapes and sizes of paper. Table : Hey you receipt, wanna join our party? Receipt: F yea, can I bring a few million of my friends and their friends?? Then the mail shows up with books and the whole thing is like a kegger from a teen/young adult movie. Then it migrates to my dinner table and grows!

My personalities are battling it out. My lazy side is winning while my control freak side is somehow whimpering in a corner. Pure frustration. I need to de-clutter, clean and keep up a steady routine in order to find SOME sort of balance. First I’m going to make a list! This list is everything that I need either clean and organize. Lots to do!

List for Downstairs

  • Kitchen : Dishes, counters, fridge, window covering, floors (sweep, scrub & vacuum), sink, oven, & cabinets.
  • Entry : Shoes, floors (sweep, scrub & find a rug), coat closet, & table.
  • Dining Room : Table and floor (vacuum).
  • Living Room : Bookcases (DVD, mini stand for remotes & 2 for books), sofa, chair, coffee table, TV stand, fire place & mantle, desk, wall shelf above desk, knitting area and floor (vacuum).
  • Bathroom : Toilet, sink, mirror, cabinet & floor (sweep, scrub & vacuum).

List for Upstairs

  • Master Bedroom : Laundry, bookcases, night stands, ottoman, bed & floor (vacuum).
  • Closet : Laundry baskets, clothes, storage & floor (vacuum).
  • Master Bathroom : Toilet, sink, mirror, cabinet, over toilet storage, shower & floor (sweep, scrub & vacuum).
  • Hallway : Linen closet, laundry closet, stairs & & floor (vacuum).
  • 2nd Bedroom : Crafts, bookcases, closet & floor (vacuum).

With this list I need to put some of the things I’ve learn from researching minimalist ideals from the books I talked about briefly in my battling chaos post. I’ll talk more about that in Battling Chaos v.2.

Tiffany – The Tangled Taurus

The year I turn 30

I had a depressing night last night.

I’m usually a fairly optimistic and positive person but last night all I could think about was how unfulfilling my life is. Not only in work but in my personal life as well. I think I’m hitting the 30 blues. It’s not that I’m sad I’ll be turning 30 this year, it’s all that I have, well have NOT accomplished in those 30 years. I know logically I should not compare myself to others but when 80% of your peers either have distinct careers or ready for their 2nd/3rd/4th child, I can’t help but feel inferior.

Last night I was browsing through Linkedin and the knowledge that I don’t have a career really hit home with me and hit me hard. Where is my passion? I mean, do I hate my job? No. Do I still enjoy my job and where I work? Yes, but what do you do with yourself when you are almost 30 and have no idea what you want to be when you “grow” up? I’d love to move up in my department, but the one position that would do that for me was eliminated because of budget cuts. I’m also feeling the noose of responsibility and a job that paid better would help loosen that noose.

There have been talks about upcoming performance goals and raises and I’m nervous. I feel like my work is going to look at what I make and what the average person in my position makes and decide that I already make more than the average. Then I had a dream that my company started a review website that ranked employees based on customer interaction. My boss pointed out that I had a review and it was not good. I couldn’t understand why because I’m generally really good with customers. Of course I scoured the review section looking for anything to do with me but didn’t find anything. I do a fantastic job keeping my smart ass comments to myself and not telling callers what they can do with their swear words and poor attitudes.

Overall I’m just feeling shitty about myself. Need to get out of this funk.

Tiffany – The Tangled Taurus

I need a hug

It’s been a very stressful few weeks and my body is not handling it well. I’m craving comfort food, have migraines every few days and have been incredibly irritable. All I feel like doing is snuggling with my dog on my couch watching Netflix or punching someone in the face. This is not cool. I have tons of things I should be getting done. I have a couple of projects I have to work on and plenty of books to read. I just got 2 new books that I am dying to read but it seems like I’m slacking on time management. On top of everything, I yelled at a customer service person last night and now I feel guilty.

After yelling at the guy just doing his job, I needed something to do to release the pent-up stress and anger, so I cleaned my living room. My cleanliness has gone down the drain and if you ever want to make yourself feel better, clean your living space. Emotionally, I think the clean living room helped clear some of the pent up frustrations I’ve had for the last couple of weeks. I even finished the design part on a scarf I am making for a friend. See how pretty the Seattle skyline looks!

It’s important to feel good and not let stress eat away at your mental state. Everyone cops with stress differently and I think for me, it’s important to know what the signs of stress are. When I recognize those signs I should and need to do something, like cleaning, taking a shower, going for a walk or just getting up and out of the house. I’m still pretty irritable but I’m just hoping that will pass. I hope.

Tiffany – The Tangled Taurus